So today is my birthday. For me, it is a benchmark day. I can’t help but to think, “Am I better off today than I was last year?†“Have I accomplished anything this year?†Birthdays are harder for people as they get older because they are a built in yearly exam. I am now past “middle aged” and am on a downward trajectory toward death.  Ok, that was a little dark, but I am at an age where I am supposed to be building, making a name for myself, and being “successful.” I think about how we are doing financially, how I’m doing as a dad and husband, and are we moving forward as a family?
Also, on a spiritual side of things I ask myself, “Am I where I’m supposed to be, and am I doing what I am supposed to be doing?†Did I get off track somewhere this past year? How is my relationship with the Lord, and am I still able to clearly hear His direction? Have there been any changes that would cause me to reevaluate anything? So yeah, I was up early this morning.
The great philosopher Yoda once said, “Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.” So even though I am marching quickly into the future I will try not to fear (or at least show it on the outside.)
Isaiah 41:10 ” fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
I can say that I could not be prouder of my family. My kids are doing great in school, and my wife has started a new career as a teacher. We have added bees and a pig to our homestead and our weekly schedule is packed with activities. My two oldest sons are now officially teenagers, but they seem to be grounded. Â All of my children are good friends (to other kids) and have a loose understanding of what we are trying to do for the Lord as a family.
So today I’ll go bowling with the Cub Scout pack, run some errands for the kid’s camp next week, get a haircut, and think about how the Lord has been very good to me in spite of me on my birthday. I will not fear the future, but will reevaluate and make needed adjustments as we move forward.
